The Worry List

Blue October

I'm tired, twisted, barely breathing, buried in the dark
Don't be concerned, it's just the power of a breaking heart
How good am I hiding it?
Look, I've got some bad intentions, guilty as fucking charged
Still standing stable, more than able 'cause I know who you are
I know the birthdays, anniversaries, all the first days I missed
I regret them all, but now I know this

I know that God exists, I held her in my arms
I never knew I was able to ever feel this strong
Take me off your worry list, it'll be better that way
I'm really fine and there's nothing we haven't talked about
So, take me off your worry list I said, "Throw it away"
This is what my life is about
I might have been gone but I never walked out

I've taken a thousand red eyes to change your point of view
What kind of man would take the trust you break and still follow through?
'Cause I'm standin' right here and you may not show up
This same gate 14 where, honestly, I'm just sick of calling your bluff
And it's just embarrassing, that I nearly threw up
And I'm trying hard to change the things I always screw up
And at the top of my list, this visitation's no relationship
But I gotta make the best of it 'cause I know

I know that God exists, I held her in my arms
I never knew I was able to ever feel this strong
Take me off your worry list, it'll be better that way
And I'm doin' fine and I've got plenty of friends around
Take me off your worry list, just throw it away
Well, it's time to stand up on my own for her
'Cause I'm packing it up, and I'm comin' today

I couldn't wait to finally pick my family up
Everything is quiet and covered in snow
There's something wrong here, nobody's at home
Oh, no, no, no, no, no
Now, I'm back in the driver's seat
Heading back home, yeah back to Texas on my own
Take me off your worry list, it'll be better that way

And I'm doin' fine and I've got plenty of friends around
Take me off your worry list, just throw it away
Yeah, it's time to stand up on my own for her
I'm packing it up, and I'm comin' today
This is what my story's about
I might have been gone but I never walked out
I'm packin' it up, and I'm comin' today
This is what your story's about

My pretty little girl, can you figure it out?
If it helps to know so there is no doubt
Just listen to the stories not everything is glorious
Some hurt, some love, some shout
I fought the world and I lost that bout
And you are what my album's about
I might have been gone, but I never walked out