Give It Up
Please forgive me darln my thoughts, they aint my own,
Im half the man I could have been but this the path I chose.
Now I gone so far, there aint no turning back,
How the helld I end up on this side of the tracks?
Give it up.
Its been said before and itll be said again,
Im my own worst enemy, I aint even my own friend.
They say you cant love another til you learn to love yourself,
Its a fine line Im treadin between me and my mental health.
Give it up.
Ive been here before, Ive seen these eyes and Ive walked these floors.
Ive done all my cryin yes Ive shed all my tears, my body feels much older than all of my years.
Ive got to give it up.
Its got a grip now and Im sick of this shit, used to float round the edge now Im in the thick of it and I can spy the darkness from the corner of my eye.
Time is a creeper, sure aint no healer, I watch helpless as it flows right by me.
Someone showed me a photo of a happy young man, even I didnt recognise me.
Ive got to give it up.
I got the self control of a wolf with a bone, put all my eggs in one basket,
yes I need help, I truely do but Im too afraid to ask for it.
Shaking like a leaf looking on in disbelieve, I jump bolt upright in my sleep,
Zoning in and out like a beacon in the fog and my needs are so very basic.
Give it up.
I admit it to myself but I cant to no one else cuz the shame is overwhelming.
Tried to look myself in the eye, made me wanna die and these habbits are gonna kill me.
Blackouts, panic attacks, knocked down on my back, cant seem to stand for love nor money,
Dark dark times in a dark dark mind, cant seem to find nothing funny.
Give it up.
Dead inside with nowhere to hide but I still cant seem to find me,
Changed so much, just waiting for some luck to come and release me.
Give it up, Ive got to give it up.
