Trying
Yeah
My younger self loved gettin' drunk, but he misunderstood it
He made his liver handle anything his heart just couldn't
I started lookin' for myself, my compass constantly would spin
A smart man looks around, a wise man looks within, yeah
I'm diggin' deeper, I'm tryna just stop suppressin' shit
You give somebody money once, they might just start expectin' it
Then resentment builds after that first time you refuse
But givers need to set boundaries 'cause takers never do
I swear, I'm tryin' (I swear, I'm tryin')
I think that's all I can do
There's no denyin' (There's no denyin')
That old habits keep slippin' through
And I know that I won't (I won't)
Ever have it all figured out, oh no (Oh no)
That's not gon' stop me from tryin', tryin' (Yeah), tryin' (Yeah)
I'm navigatin' internal chaos, don't get a day off
Sometimes I feel dead inside, self talks feel like a seance
Prayin' for the strength to investigate not ignore
I gotta stop bangin' on walls, hopin' they turn into a door
I'm feelin' torn though
My comfort zone is now a warzone
Ashamed of my own sadness, I feel betrayed by my own hormones
I'm chasin' congruency, I'm cravin' community
Told my girl, "I love you, but my life can't just be you and me"
I swear, I'm tryin' (I swear, I'm tryin')
I think that's all I can do
There's no denyin' (There's no denyin')
That old habits keep slippin' through
And I know that I won't (I won't)
Ever have it all figured out, oh no (Oh no)
That's not gon' stop me from tryin' (Yeah), tryin' (Yeah), tryin' (Yeah)
I got a problem with enabling my family, it's disabling
Scared to face my demons, but when I do, it makes my angel sing
Stressed 'cause it's the season of celebratin' and grievin'
The grays poppin' out like Liam Neeson
How long will they be open to receiving my message? I'm thirty-two now
If you were in the genre that I'm in, you'd worry too now
My family all relies on me
I got a fear of bein' seen, but for their sake, please, keep your eyes on me (Yeah)
I swear, I'm tryin' (I swear, I'm tryin')
I think that's all I can do
There's no denyin' (There's no denyin')
That old habits keep slippin' through
And I know that I won't (I won't)
Ever have it all figured out, oh no (Oh no)
That's not gon' stop me from tryin', tryin', tryin'
