Amitriptyline

John Vanderslice

So long, goodbye
By order of the pasadena court
So long, goodbye
500 milligrams are needed everyday
Held down by a pharmaceutical hand
Are needed everyday
So we can regulate
My uncontrollable rage

Remember me as I was
Too much life
And oh too much love
Last week my lastly stunning stunt
Top tier my jumping chandelier

That's why I'm here
Amitriptyline

I was a quiet lunchbox lonely little boy
Reading sci-fi broken treehouse on the shore
At nineteen the talking in my head
Got harder to understand
No work, no school, drifting, a failing satellite
Don't feel sorry for me I've been happy too
Manic, kindly, blinding, high-res euphoria

Please remember me as I was
The crowning dove
The clowning judge
Sad king alone in the western wing
Holding foe's laughing, severed head

That's why I'm here
Amitriptyline