Waking Up
Waking up today,
I had the sense that it was time for change, but feeling demoralized the perception was hushed and
I'm quiet now.
Waking up today,
I could barely feel my face.
Not jumping up out of bed, but falling instead because my body's numb.
Look into a mirror.
Do you recognize yourself?
You'll find sometimes you don't.
Your friends ask if you're okay.
You're turning blue as they wait for answer, but you won't.
Oh no, you won't.
I feel my insides showing out.
I want medicine but no amount can take me away, take me away from this.
I must confront this confusing mess.
Mother said, "son always do your best child, child now."
I wish
I listened to you then.
Look into a mirror.
I do not recognize myself.
I've found sometimes
I don't.
My friends ask if
I'm okay.
I'm turning blue as they wait for an answer, but
I won't.
I should have listened to you then.
