Disturbance
I sense a disturbance, I can't unearth it
Trying my best to come around and rebirth it
The fans that I got I fought and earned it
Bridges from the past? I torched and burned it
It's hard to get noticed when you have no confidence
That's the struggle, so I make up over confidence
I know I'm just a guy behind the mic doing my thing
But hopefully someone can relate and ease the pain
The pain of pouring everything I got into these songs
Maybe I should try something else, this might be wrong
Maybe I should just relax and take a breath
Anxiety hits my brain like a wave of death
I'm not trying to be the greatest
I just want you to hear and know this
I never wanted you to take notice
My pain, I tried not to show this
Sometimes it boils up inside
Then it comes pouring to the outside
I try to control the damage I've created
My insecurities make me feel so hated
I know this song is so "doom and gloom"
But as an artist, this is what I go through
I'm sorry this song is so negative
I've lost the positive vibe of my messages
I'll be back to normal once I figure out what normal is, until then I'll be a sad Vanbiz
Living in self-loathing, sadness and bouts of depression
Writer/s: Sean Hoyt
