All Hope Was Lost
Yea
I had too much pride to call
When all hope was lost
I would say I tried, but I ain't try at all
That was during fall
When she was at the mall
And I was working overtime
I was still trying to ball
I was going through some hell
Letters coming through the mail
I didn't even wanna read them
I was facing time in jail
And we was going back and forth
Fourth and back, back and forth
Every time you tried to warn me
Every sign I ignored
When all hope was lost
Yea, I had your number
But I didn't wanna call
I was too afraid, too afraid to fall
Now I'm picking up the pieces
All the pieces off
From when all hope was lost
All hope was lost
All hope was lost
Yea I had your number
But I ain't wanna call
I was too afraid,
Too afraid to fall
From when all hope was lost
I tried to do it on my own
Now I gotta pay the cost
Now I gotta sit and watch
Now I gotta count the lost
Now I gotta contemplate
Now I gotta be at fault
Why I gotta think so hard
Why can't I just brush it off
Why I gotta waste time
Thinking bout a known loss
Trying to find a narrow gate
But they be trying to push me off
Why they trying to get me back to my life before the cross
When all hope was lost
When I was at the club, and I was falling off
I was drinking hard
And I was deep in thought
I was trying to wonder how did I get this far
All hope was lost
I even typed a message, but I didn't send it off
I was too afraid, too afraid to be ignored
Now I'm picking up the pieces
All the pieces off
From when all hope was lost
All hope was lost
All hope was lost
Yea I had your number
But I ain't wanna call
I was too afraid
Too afraid to fall
All hope was lost
All hope was lost
All hope was lost
All hope was lost
I was too afraid
I was growing up
I didn't know enough
Life was getting real hard for me
Yea I felt like giving up
Yea I felt like throwing in that towel in
I was wilding, I had your number but didn't dialing
I was hiding pain behind smiling
They didn't know what I was going through
Talking like its just me and you
At the time I was real hurt
My spirit man needed real work
I was living in the moment then
Still driving that Toyota then
I was leaning on you like Morgan Freeman
I was having trouble trying to fight the demons
They were coming for me at full speed
Everything I wanted wasn't what I need
Everything I had wasn't I needed
I was on my knees I was really pleading like
I know you hear me
I know you see me
I know I'm running
I know I need you
I know you called me like a million times
I ignored the call
I just left it ringing
Maybe I call you later
Maybe I'll call when I need me a savior
Or call when I need me a favor
Or call when I need me a wavier
Or call when in need of a neighbor
Or call when in need of a tailor-to suit my needs
Oh my gosh, now I call my hope is lost
Writer/s: Norman Sanchez